He GIVES and Takes Away

But today he gives.

On August 31 Jen went in for an emergency c-section. We gave birth to a 2lb 14oz boy named Silas. His first 5 weeks were spent in the NICU. I waited for a time before I was able to let him into my heart. I wanted to make sure he was going to be around for a while. I know I have no guarantees but I at least wanted to know he was going to make it out of the NICU.

He came home on an apnea monitor in early October. I think he has only had one legitimate brady since being home and that was over a month ago.

He grows and smiles and focuses on us. He has started cooing and making noises.

He has a crooked smile - like me. He sneezes in the sunshine - like me. He has really bad gas - ... ;)

He will never know his other brother on earth. I will have to teach him who Carter was, and still is, and when and where he will meet him - along with our Creator.

His siblings dote over him.
His mother glows.
I have let him in.

He doesn't replace Carter.
He does meet a need.

Thank you Father for letting us have Silas. Give Carter a hug and let him know he will have another playmate in a while - 80 years or so.