He GIVES and Takes Away

But today he gives.

On August 31 Jen went in for an emergency c-section. We gave birth to a 2lb 14oz boy named Silas. His first 5 weeks were spent in the NICU. I waited for a time before I was able to let him into my heart. I wanted to make sure he was going to be around for a while. I know I have no guarantees but I at least wanted to know he was going to make it out of the NICU.

He came home on an apnea monitor in early October. I think he has only had one legitimate brady since being home and that was over a month ago.

He grows and smiles and focuses on us. He has started cooing and making noises.

He has a crooked smile - like me. He sneezes in the sunshine - like me. He has really bad gas - ... ;)

He will never know his other brother on earth. I will have to teach him who Carter was, and still is, and when and where he will meet him - along with our Creator.

His siblings dote over him.
His mother glows.
I have let him in.

He doesn't replace Carter.
He does meet a need.

Thank you Father for letting us have Silas. Give Carter a hug and let him know he will have another playmate in a while - 80 years or so.

Loosing a Friend

Yesterday I had to say goodbye to a long time friend. God called him elsewhere and though I will still ping him from time to time his presence will be missed. He stood with me during the single hardest moment in my life. His wisdom has guided me numerous times. His mark is forever on my family.

I love you brother.

I will miss you.